When I saw your eyes gazing away in the skies,

When I saw your mind lost in the far away dreams,

When I saw the shine gone from your smile,

My heart fell, a small chip left, my soul cried, baby don’t go.

I gave my heart to you, its yours to decide what you do with it,

I gave my life to you, its you to decide its fate,

I gave my soul to you, defining you are its destiny,

Would you want to break it, extinguish its spirit, quench its fire?

All is fair is love and in war dear,

Ours is love between us and a war between our demons in our mind,

I kneel in front of you, accept your mind, your wish, your ordinance,

With a prayer that I will have the strength to carry that, will have the breath to hold it.

I thank you for the assurances, your efforts to alleviate my fears and pains,

I wish your heart is still intact, unlike mine.

I hope you are staying with the same feelings, same shine in your smile,

I am with you, loving you, from near or from far.

Through all the feelings that came in to your mind which were not pleasant and calm,

My actions are solely responsible, my thoughts are to be punished, I am the one who need to bear the grudge of the unpleasant thoughts

But the effect on you of  my thoughts, words and actions are unjust, they are mine.

I can say my apologies a million times but they do not undo the unpleasant feeling in your mind,

I can not compensate for putting those bad feelings in your heart, pain in your mind,

Are we for real, I wondered a thousand times in dark of night, a night that sleep eluded me,

Am I in to destroy us, that make me sad, us is a beautiful feeling that do not deserve death,

The stormy mind, turbulent heart, and a remorseful soul, me.

Trying to see the north star through the clouds of doubts on my ability to reach it,

Motivated though, on the sound of a soothing voice that said ‘don’t be sad’

Failed to know what I could do to keep that voice happy in the world of ‘us’.